Thursday, December 21, 2023


Combining The Phil Blecker material
videos and audio

Documentaries, Films and Animation content is constantly being uploaded to Our Youtube channels
LLProductions Simion's Animation |  Chris's stream |  Chris's music

Always uploading material on my four dropbox channels
Ana Narrates | Ana Narează | Phil | Dr. Bob |

My narration of Dracula has been published on Audible and I have promo codes for those interested in them.
Audible |

Narrating The Way of Transformation

Reading of Month Les Miserables
Eng A | Rom | French | A T |

Narrating " Meeting the Shadow The Hidden Power of the Dark Side of Human Nature"

Mustache Man

A great big film I shot, edited and wrote.
Falling in love with cinema and aspiring to tell stories.

Monday, January 23, 2023

Tuesday, January 17, 2023

Just finished editing Los Angeles River Bridges: (Episode 2) Sixth Street Bridge at Night (2022)

This is Episode 2 of the Series "Los Angeles River Bridges. The river is very peaceful at night and the bridges reign supreme. Enjoy, subscribe and leave your comments.

Saturday, November 19, 2022

November cold night

Some random shots I saved and put together. I often take drives solo and enjoy the beautiful views of the amazing city of Los Angeles.  The cold desert air at night is calming and as the city begins to sleep I often come alive and recharge.

Friday, September 23, 2022

A Visit at the City's Garden

 The City's Garden is at the Los Angeles City College. It was lovely to see life coming back to normal after the pandemic. 

Wednesday, September 7, 2022

Tuesday, July 26, 2022

Working as a Stagehand

 Have been hired by Rhino Staging 

It's been very difficult working or finding work in this industry and everyone I would ask, none could answer: "How can I work in crew?  As a stagehand, Grip, that sort of thing?

I don't know why noone could answer, even though they seemed to be working constantly.

Maybe people working in this business feel threatened about sharing information. Or maybe they struggle themselves.

I am excited about working through Rhino and will keep you posted on my progress.

For anyone interested in working as crew, check this company out.  You won't have to pay upfront fees to find each job - like StaffMeUp. 

Saturday, February 12, 2022


 A new updated link of where my book can be bought.  The book is in Romania and it contains the notes from a teaching. 

Tuesday, December 7, 2021

Oranges and White Chocolate 3 minute scene First Edit

I shot this scene to practice shooting and directing - with a group of very talented and conscientious actors. 


Betsy Thomas
Richard Butch
Liz Tiede
Judd Angel
Maricella Ibarra
Joe Wedner
John Luke - sound
Kevin Break and Plator Grezda - Assistant camera and sound

Tuesday, November 9, 2021

The LA River Montage for a secret planned Documentary

 I shot these pictures and put this montage together for an editing class I'm taking in hopes I will learn to edit better the footage I shoot.  This is something I have been planning for more than 10 years and over the years I have collected so much footage on the LA River.  More updates will come soon about the secret documentary in this magical place.

Tuesday, October 26, 2021

When Harry Met Sally Original Sound shot by Plator Grezda 2021

a scene I performed in.  I love to perform and it also allows me to learn about filmmaking.  I love the way Plator shot this scene and learned to always leave the camera on manual.  I'll try it in the future shoots.

Friday, October 22, 2021

Shot and edited these two scenes

 Been playing around and experimenting with shooting scenes.

Here they are.  I find it intriguing to play with the sound and editing the footage. I love finding ways to play with the camera too. Here are two pairs of talented actors doing different scenes. 

Saturday, August 28, 2021


 I love to write and something about filmmaking attracts me to it.  I don't know what it is yet.  One thing I am sure of, I had a language problem, so to understand the texts in english, I read it over and over, which pushed me towards performing texts to understand the meaning.  I feel that filmmaking, whether it is recording audio of the texts, shooting moving images to retell the story and all the different mediums that come with filmmaking, takes the text and makes it available to anyone.  If it is performed in such a way like Bollywood filmmaking shoots their films, it doesn't even matter what language one speaks, because they would get the gist of the story by just watching it.  I am mesmerized by storytelling.

Thursday, July 29, 2021

A group of actors will be performing pieces written by Errol Strider in about two weeks, myself included. Come check it out, the broadcast will be on zoom.  Here is the link:

 Everyone is welcome, all over the Globe. So if you live in Romania, Africa, South America like many of my friends, or any other country, and you love Theatre, please come. 

Thursday, May 27, 2021

International Dracula Day 2021 Dedication

Happy International Dracula Day!
Here is a first draft of a Documentary I experimented with and wanted to get it out just in time for the International Dracula Day.  Having narrated the book inspired me to want to find out more about why everyone loves Dracula so much.  I'm still playing with adding more external footage.  Thank you to everyone who let me interview them for this.  

Tuesday, March 2, 2021

Dracula by Bram Stoker is live on Audible

 I am excited to announce that after much resistance, I have learned to master my own audio and my audiobook is live on Audible.  I have promo codes for those interested in checking out my narration. 

You can find the book at this link:

Friday, January 15, 2021

Organizing Phil's material

Since the lockdown is still going on in California, I began to immerse myself even more into the teaching material. Have been digging in archives of material collected from other workers and am amazed at the amount of teaching material Phil left. So I'm uploading it all to Dropbox. It is so much material that I might have to find a better way to organize this. It's a lifetime of work. If anyone has any ideas let me know. Here is the link to the Dropbox I'm posting it all to.

Tuesday, December 22, 2020

The Teacher

 As I convert the teacher's videos, and as I see his face, it makes me remember how perfect it was.  He was gay, but when he told me I have a problem and he used to have this problem too, I knew I would remember that.  Because that answer get more clear to me each day.  

When he got within my darkness, I knew I saw him.  He's there, within me and when my heart feels aching, I know it is that problem that makes me feel this way.  My darkness has issues, just like he did.  But he believed in me, that I can do this.  He was, he got to the level where he lived in the artist state of being place.  I want to live there.

Now why do I want to live where the teacher lives, one might say?  Because "the teacher thing" he did, includes, as a matter of fact, it is all based on the sexual thing in Man.  It is sexual but not the physical sexual thing we do here on earth, but a spiritual similar thing, that actually feels better than sex.  I feel that for him and I am priviledged to say that even though he didn't want to do this with me, that he decided to do this with me.

Phil Blecker (The Teacher) Complete Video Collection Playlist

Sunday, December 20, 2020

December 20, 2020

 This is my new blog.  It has been a while since I blogged so this will be a new experiment.  I changed a lot since the last time I wrote anything.  The old Ana is gone.  The new me has new values and ideals so I am happy about the new me.  I guess this will be like my journal, only, perhaps, not as personal.  I always get personal even in public, so what do I care about being too personal.

    The teachings have become my life.  There has been a lot of resistance to begin doing the teachings, but I always desired it underneath it all.  The acting career wasn't what I thought it would be.  It was, after all, an ideal.  But who says one can't aim to do both, the ideal and the real, mammon and God?  After all, I live on Earth, where the fizical things rule.  I want both, to do the teachings and to serve mammon, that forever present desire to attain an ideal of performing in Hollywood movies.

    I began to narrate books.  when the Corona virus started to spread all over the planet, I was quarantining and decided to build a sound booth to have alone time from my husband and kids.  So I narrate texts that contain the teaching in them.  Of worlds that used to be, the lost imperialism times, before the Communists took over.  A reality I missed out on.  

    I love old texts for different reasons.  As a producer, I can't get in trouble with the copyright law, which means I can create my own content without hopefully being sued.  Another reason is because I love to discover how people used to experience space and time in the past.  Another reason is that the present times always seem too rough for me to be able to accept.  When I lived in Romania I was sensitive to the communist present which presented a prison to me, from which there was no option of escape.  The present of today changed as I moved to America, but also, there are radical views forever present which disturb my peace.  There are police officers being recorded for killing black men and the Black Lives Matter movement was always present in my reality during the Covid Quarantine.  

    This left aspect of life, is the B side I learned to observe in the teachings.  I haven't experimented with it lately much, except that I am beginning to take advantage of it by applying for government assistance such as food stamps and having my University studies paid for through school grants.  Priviledges I didn't know I had before I became aware of this left aspect of the realities of life.  

    Maybe that's why I love to act and narrate in old stories.  They have the imperial ways in them, which the left dislikes.  In the intellectual arena it is referred to as the ignorance of man, which the left always forces us to question. In essence I know I am the left and have been brainwashed to perform it on purpose in Communist schools and as a matter of fact schools all over the place, with the exception perhaps of Hinsdale.

    Having lost my father to Corona, I am even more determined to appreciate the left view of things but to move on and be in charge of my own inner feelings.  There are so many who have been uptight with me, more so in my youth, who conned me to held back from helping me in the entertainment business simply based on the way I look.  The left dislike whiteness and call out priviledge solely based on race.  The right looked at the fact that I am from a different country as labeling me "the other" as referred to in his book "Orientalism" by Edward Said.  

    It hasn't been to my advantage to pick a side.  Whether it is the right or the left, Imperialism or Communism, Capitalism or Socialism, I have made up my mind that I am the only one who will help myself.  To survive, feed my children, or to have an amazing life.  So I'm taking advantage of both sides, and in doing so, I'm neither a liberal or republican, white or ethnic, but in charge of my inner state, my peace of mind, and therefore I do the teachings first, but I take advantage of the cruel aspects in life.  I take advantage and perform in media.  But for a different purpose than the old Ana.

Saturday, June 27, 2020

Phil Blecker's tapes

Phil's Old Original Website can be found here 

LA Audio Notes:  pdf book 

1-----Overview 11/2/1995 (week 1)2-----The 4 forces Resistance 11/9/1995 (week 2)3-----Resistance 11/30/1005 (week 3)4-----Resistance 12/7/1995 (week 4,5,6)5-----Resistance 12/14/1995 (week 4,5,6)6-----7th Decision (a new good) 12/21/1995 (week7)7-----2nd force – 12/28/1995(week8)8-----Greed, Vanity, Pride – 1/4/1996(week9)9-----Preparing the way – 1/11/1996(week 10)10---Ideals, the misery of struggle – 1/18/1996(week 11)11---Ideals, the vicious Cycle – 1/25/1996(week 12)12---Stress & Trying to Improve things –2/8/1996(week 13)13---7th Decision (a new good) 12/21/1995(week 14)14---Obedient to my nature – 2/22/1996(week 14)15---Obstruction to being aware – 2/29/1996(week 15)16---States of being #1 – 3/7/1996(week 16)17---What is Self Observation – 3/21/1996(week 17)18---States of Being – 4/11/1996(week 18)19---States of Being – 4/18/1996(week 19)20---Freedom – 4/25/1996(week 20)21---2 worlds – 5/2/1996(week 21)22---2 worlds games  – 5/23/1996(week 22)23---2 worlds games the 4 great games – 5/23/1996(week 23)24---Adultery and the conscience – 5/30/1996(week 24)25---Living and possessing – 6/6/1996(week 25)26---Blame responsibility  possessions – 6/13/1996(week 26)27---Thinking reacting growth – 6/20/1996(week 27)28---PAIN (week 28)29---Knowing & Believing – 6/27/1996(week 29)30---Avoiding pain – 7/25/1996(week 30)31---30a, 30b – 8/1/1996(week 31)32---Valuing – 8/8/1996(week 32)33---What is, what ought to be – 8/15/1996(week 33)34---Necessity of disidentifying – 9/26/1996(week 34)35---Self improvement – 10/3/1996(week 35)36---The way & being incomplete – 10/24/1996(week 36)37---I cannot Do – 11/7/1996(week 37)38---Truth & Freedom – 11/21/1996(week 38)39---The necessity of self remembering40---Beginning of self remembering41---Staying on the way42---Being, doing having, getting43---School subjects44---As seen by I45---Dissapointment and feedback46---Openess & Freedom47---Dissapointment or freedom

Combining The Phil Blecker material
videos and audio

Finished a documentary about Dracula
| YouTube | Imdb |

Always uploading material on my four dropbox channels
| Ana Narrates | Ana Narează | Phil | Dr. Bob |

My narration of Dracula has been published on Audible and I have promo codes for those interested in them.
| Audible |

Narrating The Way of Transformation

Narrating " Meeting the Shadow The Hidden Power of the Dark Side of Human Nature"